Society

I despise this society we've created.

The hated and fear and filth and chaos that surrounds me on a daily basis fills me with such profound sadness. I don't think we're going to make it, and there won't be anyone left to record the day the human race went extinct. How did we get here?

Most of the people throughout history that have ruled over their respective empires have been people who sought out that power, and they overwhelming did so to also attain as much personal wealth as could be had - and their personal interests always superceded what was best for humanity as a whole. And they've fucked it up.

I don't view myself as an individual really, and I believe that most people who think like me don't either. Whether through a near-death experience, intuition or some other profound event in our lives - we 'know' (though it's difficult to explain) how we fit into the larger scheme of things. This knowing lies in a non verbal part of our brains, and you cannot put it into words that make any sense to someone who doesn't feel this way. There is such peace with this knowing - such love. My being is at peace with the world, but my human part has to live in it.

I seek wisdom and beauty and love and peace and I cannot understand why everyone doesn't feel like that. We won't survive as a species (in my humble opinion) unless we all become human-beings, the being within can find that peace, but the human aspect of ourselves fights it tooth and nail - why??

It's so heartbreaking for me to look around at what we've become, and we've been on this self-destructive path since the beginning of civilization. We build it up, and smash it down... over and over and over again. But this time we're bound and determined to make sure that we obliterate every other life form along with us, and perhaps even the entire planet itself. I'm glad we weren't able to move on and destoy another one too. But those of us who care about such things are typically not the ones who seek power or personal riches and we're completely powerless now.

It's too late, we're too detructive, our weapons and chemicals are capable of annihilating - everything. And I'm watching this madness unfold before my eyes, and there is nothing I can do to stop it. No one can. Those in power clearly can't or won't or simply don't want to.
And most will go out never having had a clue as to why they were here in the first place.